On a completely unrelated side note, how did Detroit get a hold of 214 million dollars with their economy?
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
I hate risks
I guess I know why I don't gamble too much. I've only played the lottery three times in my. Once when I got free tickets for looking at cars that I couldn't afford. I won 4 bucks. The second time, I found the tickets on the ground unscratched. The third time, I won them in a Dirty Santa game with co-workers. Yes, people traded me lottery tickets for a coffee mug. Be that as it may, I don't do a lot of gambling. I don't take a lot of risks. Maybe it's because I hate to lose. Possibly because I don't like what could happen. I'm not a fan of putting money on certain sports teams. Needless to say, my apprehension with gambling goes beyond money. I'm okay with sharing my feelings if I know I'm right and what will happen next. I'm okay with putting my opinions on this thing because ultimately, I control my thoughts. However when it comes to sharing my feelings and leaving the results in someone else's hands, that scares the you know what out of me. I don't know if I just am scared of the results. I don't know if I'm nervous over being wronged. It's the reason I can count on one hand how many times I've had true feelings for someone. I really hate having all my efforts be in vain. It's a pet peeve of mine. However sometimes you have to swallow that pride and that apprehension and go for it. Yes, I am basically talking to myself. This is me telling me to go for whatever it is I have to go for and let the consequences be derned. Mom's reading this, can't be swearing. What will happen, I really don't know. Just have to trust that everything will work out for the best. Fear must be beaten. Lucky for me, I have a hard time fearing things for longer than a minute. Except escalators...those things will never be not scary.