Sunday, July 24, 2011

I want her back

Yeah, it's true.  I haven't really said this out loud, but I just want her back.  Maybe that's why I've been so bent out of shape.  I guess I've come to grips with these feelings last night while having some nice fun with some friends of mine.  I was watching the festivities and drinking a Coca-Cola with a slice of lime in it.  That's when it kind of hit me like a ton of bricks.  I miss her so much.  She left without a lot of fanfare and didn't bother to tell me at all.  It really broke my heart.  So I'm making a plea right now for my old girl to come back to me.  I don't think she'll read this, but if she just happens to have some friends that read this blog; I really hope they tell her that I want her back in my life again.  I remember the day we met.  I saw her chilling.  I rolled up to her and took her with me somewhere.  Never left since.  However since we met, it was hard keeping up with her.  Sometimes, I just couldn't afford her.  However, once she was with me, I never left her side and I never let her go.  Then one day, she just upped and disappeared.  No explanation.  No discussion.  Just her not there anymore.  I guess when I was drinking my Coca-Cola with a slice of lime, it all made sense as to why I was so miserable.  I missed my girl, Coke with Lime.  I know you all remember Coke with Lime.  They even had a commercial.

That stuff was so good.  It was so yummy and refreshing.  And don't give me that, "they still make Diet Coke with Lime" mess.  Anyone with a brain and 4 taste buds knows that anything diet tastes like snow tires.  Don't ask how I know what snow tires tastes like.  I'm talking the real stuff.  I remember when I brought it to work way back when and my buddy Ralph looked at it like I had a nuclear bomb.  I think the green lid hypnotised him.  I told him, "Ralph, it's Coke with Lime.  It's yummy."  I poured him a small cup and he said, "That [stuff] smells like rum and Coke."  He smelled like rum and Coke everyday at work, so I guess he would be the foremost authority.  Point being, it was so popular and now it's gone.  So, if anyone who has anything to do with Coca-Cola products is reading this (and ever since I found out people from Slovenia have been reading my blog, I don't believe it's beyond the realm of possibility that that could be happening), I beg you to PLEASE bring that stuff back.

P.S. And if you happen to be a representative from Pepsi, you must also bring back Crystal Pepsi on the double.  It was Pepsi, that was CLEAR!!!  CLEAR I SAY!!!!

Saturday, July 16, 2011

How does one get here?

For those wondering, which is really no one, the radio show hit a snag.  I'll get it popping soon, I promise.

You ever have someone in your life that pretty much flips the script on you?  One minute you're best friends.  Inseparable to the end.  And then KABOOM, it changes to never speaking to you again.  I always thought that stuff happened in comic books and stuff.  I don't read comic books, but I'm thinking Joker type craziness.  Actually probably more like James Franco in Spider Man.  Can't remember his character's name, but he went from quiet kid to vengeful villain in like no time.  I'm not saying that this friend is a villain, far from it.  I, to this day, respect this person for all they've been through in their life.  I even made sure that this person knew how much I respected and cared for them everyday.  For reasons, probably out of my control, this friendship dissolved.  As much as I want to just erase this from my head, I just can't do it.  Something about that whole loving your neighbor as you love yourself thing.  I refuse to be hateful and hurtful to this person, as much as they've hurt me I just can't do it.  This person has even told me how good of a person I was to them and their family.  However it's not enough.  There are people far worse in this person's life that they'll continue to be cordial to, yet I'm the leper in this thing.  To this day, I can't for the life of me figure out what went wrong to cause someone to change their tune about me so quickly.  I thought I knew, but it's just confusing me more and more.  Look, if you never want to talk to someone again, at least have an explanation.  Not an excuse or a made up reason, a legitimate explanation for what they did to you to cause you to be on their poo list.  When someone doesn't want to explain their actions, it usually means that the actions are irrational.  How do people get to a point in their life where turning on someone they cared for so much is okay?  Once I care for someone, that care stays with them for life unless they do something totally inappropriate in the relationship.  Maybe that's my problem.  Maybe I expect everyone on this planet to be as loyal to me as I would be to them.  Am I expecting too much out of the human race to just get them to say, "I'm not speaking to you because..."?   I would assume not, but I don't know.  I don't expect perfection from people, but I expect decency.  I probably don't expect the person I'm speaking of to even read this.  However I do expect people who do get to read this to think about their lives.  Think about who you're hurting with an unexplained flipping of the script.  Don't assume that the person you're trying to eradicate from your life is going to take things somewhere you don't want.  Let them prove themselves to you.  Let them show you that they mean what they say and they say what they mean.  I'm not talking about blind faith, I'm talking a look back at the friendship you had and realizing that that friendship can stay true if you let the friend be a friend.  Nine times out of 10, it's usually some kind of misinterpretation of someone or something to begin with.  It hurts when you put all your power into being someone respectable and not getting any respect.  Life is a treacherous highway.  It's full of detours, potholes, and roadblocks.  The last thing any one's life needs is a friend who tells you how the road will be okay, and then speeds to the off ramp without as much as a honk of the horn or a wave out the window.

Saturday, July 9, 2011

It is what it is

This seems to be the new phrase du jour for the last couple of years now.  You think about what it actually means and it may surprise you.  I've always known it to mean that you really can't help what things are in life.  You can't change things and what not.  However there is another meaning.  When someone does something nice for you, nine times out of ten you're wondering why they're doing what they're doing.  You always wonder if there is some kind of ulterior motive for why they're doing what they're doing.  However I have a suggestion.  Maybe they do it because, I don't know, they're just nice.  Seems like we're so enamored by the thought that someone has a hidden reason for doing anything that we don't just take for what it is.  Today I was at Food Lion.  I got myself some chicken wings and a soda.  Their chicken wings are great and I love Coca-Cola, so naturally I'd get some.  The gentleman in front of me was buying his groceries and just blurted out, "I'll get his too."  Totally caught me off guard.  The only thing I could do was thank him so kindly and tell him God bless him.  It was only like 5 bucks maybe for the whole thing, but he did it anyway.  That means something to me.  I'm not going to question why he did it.  I'll just do what you're supposed to do and just be thankful for it.  Seems as if more people could stand to learn how to just be thankful.  Just take whatever is given to and let it be what it is.  If someone shows you kindness with a hello or a word of good advice.  Maybe they offer you some help, say thanks and take it as that.  When someone is good to you, it is what it is.  They're just being good to you.  Don't take a simple hello or smile and turn it into a marriage proposal.  Don't take a simple invitation to a meal or excursion and turn it into some deep rooted infatuation.  It's just someone being nice to you.  Don't have to give them the cold shoulder or ignore them.  Just be thankful.  It is what it is.  Not every nice thing that happens to you has a deep rooted meaning.  We've become so cynical as a society that a great friendship can be ruined by miscommunication and misinterpretation between people.  You ever think that people being nice to you means, they're naturally nice to people in general?  We complain about how these young kids nowadays don't have any respect.  We fuss about how they treat people, particuarly their parents.  You ever think the reason they're this way is because they learned that nice things that happen to you means that the nice person has some kind of motive?  We're just telling our kids over and over, "Don't believe that people can be good to you for no reason."  Then minutes later, we're complaining about how someone is a suck up or what not.  Not a very good look, my friends.  Let the kindness be what it is, kindness.  It is what it is sometimes.

By the way, that internet radio show project will probably start up Monday evening around 6:30pm.  I'll post more info on it.  I promise you'll love it.  I'll have a call in number and we'll just shoot the breeze for about 30 minutes.